Syabab and the miserable things

"am i like that?i meant am i always messed up when things got difficult??

hell yeah you are right..."

above dialogue was spoken by Dr. Addison Montgomery in Private practice season 4.. err why syabab tellin syabeebs about it?well syabab kinda huge fans of medical drama such as private practice and grey's anatomy...
well i keep wonder about the dialogue because syabab felt like syabab use to do that also...yeah sometimes i messed up when things got difficult...
same goes in serious relationship... when things got serious i will walk away
yeah have syabeebs ever been this way?
hmmm... examples like u have really good bonding with your besfren...
suddenly u felt like neahh... u dont want things got too serious n then u prefer to walk away...
n then u end up alone happily ever after -.-""
syabab have no idea why syabab not so good in relationship... im not talkin about love stuff...
because dat one im really not ready to discussed it now..err..haha
i mean in relationship no matter involve professionalism or friendship..
sometimes u really want to be attached but then u felt like burden when ur attached...
u know like wat i try to say??hmmm...
so u don't wat to get burden nor get frustrated so u will prefer to screw up things..
why i sound like im in the middle of love crisis...
oh Allah help me to cope with all this things
hopefully my colleague will not misunderstand the way i behave..
 syabab feel like wanna put a title at my head...
"im weirdo n complecato(complicated)"...
urrrgghhhh...

p/s: seriously the way im talkin right now r influenced by the grey's anatomy n private practice..  haha...

i bet somebody would be wondering why syabab sknk gune bhse english.. xde sbb.. err ada2.. i wanna brushed up my english..leh x??hehe